the blindfolded leading the bound

I can see my feet, but I don't know where I'm standing.
Last night, Pants broke down and I got to see him as human. He asked me to stay over. He called me "baby" and "lover." Things got personal.

So what the fuck do I do now?

I don't know what this means. Was last night a fluke? Is he going to be locked again? I feel unconcerned and still, but also terrified. I have other things I need to address. School and work and friendships. Why get hung up on this?
Everything is still on his terms, even when he hands me control.
Everything hinges on his feelings; his actions; his desires.
I wish this bothered me more. Honestly? Right now I'm really enjoying the uncertainty.

This is new.