never will; if never is

dear Pants,
This is the letter I would send if I thought it would make any difference.
I don't think how I acted last night is the reason you're saying goodbye. I think I am, however. Not because of anything I've done, but because of how you could feel about me. You want to be around me. You want me. But you want to be able to close me off in between times. I don't do that. However, you never gave me the chance to understand.
If we had talked, you would have realized how willing I am to compromise. You, on the other hand, are completely unwilling. Maybe this is how I've seemed to people in the past. However, I am not ready yet to let you go. I had a taste of us and found it delicious. We aren't done with each other. There is so much more to learn.
I think I'll take six steps back and gradually work towards you again. I think if I wait a week without words, wait for you to settle in, then maybe you'd be more receptive to me.
I want you. You need me. You don't want that. You like me, more than you want to right now. Or maybe ever.