I just want everything

There isn't much to say that I haven't already said. yet I feel compelled to write.
each person that I get close to further refines my view of myself and what I need and want. I wish I could create some kind of amalgamation of these people. it would be nice to pick and choose. someone with foresight. someone with goals. someone with morals. someone who chews with their mouth shut. I wish that wasn't as important to me as it is.
someone who is actively interested in self-improvement. someone who can communicate without resorting to passive-aggressiveness. someone that is willing to teach and learn and listen and talk.
someone to comfort me and who will ask to be comforted.
someone where our fights feel productive rather than a peek at our inevitable break-up.
someone that is willing to accept me as I am, but is also willing to help me affect change in my life if I so desire. and lets me do the same for them.
man, woman, transperson ... I don't care.
someone with self-awareness.
someone who can see and who wants me to see and wants me to help them see.
I don't think this exists. I have to tell myself that. but I won't settle, either.
I've done that too many times already.