I've been worried about my lungs.
the pneumonia was back in october and I still don't feel completely recovered. it's been five months. I developed asthma at some point. the wheezing when I ride my bike is not only embarrassing, but it makes my heart's job a lot harder, too. I tire easily. I'm not sure what to do.
even before the pneumonia, my lungs weren't functioning optimally. I don't have asthma attacks, but it's definitely not easy to breathe deeply. I don't know what it means.
my heart hurts sometimes. is that related?
my well-oiled machine is lacking parts. my well-oiled machine is running dry.
I want something to feel hopeful about.
I want to function fully.