it is in my brain now, can't take it out

it's the end of days and I wonder "how much do you miss me?"
each day that goes by without your name makes it easier and easier to let go. some said that it takes half the time you were together to get over someone. but that's such bullshit. we have been apart as long as we were together and only now do I feel ready to say goodbye.
and my exes, the other exes, it's pretty much the same for them. so those years I spent trying to forgive myself for all my transgressions ... I guess they do eventually pay off.
cat on my lap and did I mention that I think you might be a robot? yeah, I want to say hurtful things but as soon as they come to my brain now I wonder "why bother." so I don't bother. I don't bother anymore. not today, at least. there's not much to miss about you anymore that I couldn't just dream about anyway.
I don't feel much of anything right now.
your freckles, eyes, and lips. your hands, smile, and kiss. it doesn't matter that much anymore. they don't matter like they used to. I found them once and I suppose I can find it all in someone else, if that's something I feel like doing.
never trust anything sudden.
I'm sure I'll want you badly again in a couple of days, but right now I'm just glad to think you're a jerk that has no idea how to love.