hey, who knows?

feels like another one of those nights where sleep will elude me. I'll just lay in bed and stare at the dark and wonder why the fuck I can't sleep ...
and I'll think about shiny
and I'll think about every other man that has hurt me
and I'll think about my friends that are no longer friends
and every mistake that I have made
and every action I wish I could take back
and it won't matter.
I won't sleep.
and when I finally do, it will last for twelve hours
and feel like only two.

Or maybe I'll just fall asleep immediately and it will be awesome.