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mom died yesterday. I have so much trouble accepting it. realizing it. I just can't imagine my life without her. stages of grief. some say 5, but I agree with those that say 7. here they are,the seven stages of grief, in no particular order:

1. shock and denial.
2. pain and guilt
3. anger and bargaining
4. depression, reflection, loneliness
5. the upward turn
6. reconstruction and working through
7. acceptance and hope

It feels like I just got over grieving ex-otter and the death of dru. It feels like I was finally making it to a point where I was ok with things. now I have this new pain, so much deeper than before.

And now, some more advice from a website:

"Offer to help but be specific. It can seem overwhelming and stressful to have people keep asking what can I do to help you. When you are grieving you may have no idea what would be helpful or not. Because grief can be a confusing and overwhelming experience, suggest something specific. It is hard for many people to ask for help.

Be the one who takes the initiative to:

Call from time to time and just to check in
Offer to run errands or get groceries
Drop off food - don’t wait to be asked
Offer to go along to a bereavement group with them
Go for walks or enjoy a physical activity
Do a fun activity with them that you know they really enjoy: maybe a game or going to the movies
Encourage socializing but only when the person feels ready"

Honestly, I just want someone to take care of me.