I don't feel too sad about any of the things I'm "missing." I guess you could say that I don't miss them. Experiences that I'm wasting? No, just choosing other avenues these days.
I used to feel tied down by partners. I don't right now. There isn't anyone else I'd want to be with. I said to my roommate "I don't date. I just find people and then we're together. It's an instant connection." "You're lucky." "Am I? I'm kind of self-conscious about it. It's not the way things are normally done." I jump in, head first, eyes closed, arms flailing, hoping I don't hit something my body can't handle.
But it works. Has worked. Is working. Will continue to work.
Have you ever felt so certain of an outcome that it feels like it's already happened? Is that a form of self-fulfilling prophecy? I don't know. If it is, then at least in this case it will be positive.
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