what if I get what I want?

Let's block our peripheral vision.
Let's see nothing but me
and you.
I can do this I can do this I can do this
so can you.

It's like this, let me tell you before I go too far: I spook easily. Or not at all. Sometimes I overanalyze and other times I don't look at all past the surface. How does that work? No wonder I get so confused.
Being positive, looking forward, having hope ... it terrifies me. There's so much more to lose when you're happy. Being sunk into depression, there is no other way to go but up. But being as high as you have the ability to get me, well, that's a long fall.
So bear with me here.

We don't even know each other. I'm getting cold feet. But I woke up this morning and the thought of you made me smile. I don't know how to let go. I don't know how to embrace you.
This is something that will change with time,I know. Joy said "worrying is trying to control the future" and she's right. I don't want to worry. I want to just ... float. And go with what happens. And like it that way.
I don't need to have my hands in every aspect of my life, moving all the pieces.
Relax.
Breathe deep.
And exhale.