just past the half-way point

the honeymoon is over, so they say. I am feverish and freezing. There's a pain in my gut I could well do without. I hope I don't throw up.
Winter solstice sex has left me with a urinary tract infection, which I then ignored. I think it's spread from my bladder to my kidneys where it "could cause permanent damage." I hope webmd is wrong. I hope it's something stupid, and easy, that will go away if I continue to ignore it.
Foreign land. This is not my home.
My head burns and my torso aches and I wish I had someone to take care of me. I wish I had someone to sleep with me. I wish I had someone-
Someone.
I am so tired. My body hurts. Things stopped feeling right when the cold crept in. I don't want to be wrong any more. I don't want to exist.
Isn't this what I was trying to get away from? Did I just bring my old self with me?
Where ever you go, there you are.
I mean, duh.