friends aren't friends when they're gone without a word

I think that where I am doesn't matter anymore.
I feel so untouched by the drama around me. The drama, in fact, involving me. I just can't muster up the desire to care. I find this to be comforting.
So two of my oldest Providence friends have de-friended me on facebook. Oh well. We hadn't been talking much anyway. And they both smoke cigarettes and I'd just like to avoid that. It's their right to deal with relationships however they want. I understand why they wouldn't want to talk to me about it. I probably wouldn't want to either. What is there to say? "I don't want to be friends anymore." I have friend broken-up with people before. But ... I still have friends that are here for me. Why should I get upset about this? I can't.
And then there are the people that act interested in me, disappear, and then resurface later with a girlfriend. Again, why worry? This shit happens.
How about my friend that fell in love with me that won't hang out with me anymore? That does bother me but there's nothing I can do about it. I loved to cuddle with him and be around him. I liked the attention, I'm not going to lie. But I liked him too. Just not the way he liked me. So that's one less person to worry about too, I guess.
I don't want to feel bitter.
It doesn't matter where I am or where I go. There will always be people that leave. There will always be people that have left. So why does it still hurt? I can't do anything about it that I haven't already done. I can't make anyone do anything. I can't make someone like me.
Are there people out there somewhere that mourn the loss of me?
Oh, I forget that people aren't perfect. Everything isn't my fault. Each relationship, no matter the type, takes a minimum of two people to function. It's hard to accept that someone won't be coming back. The sooner I can, the better.
Let's focus on who's still here instead of who isn't anymore.
This is difficult.
Let's realize that no matter where you go, the ghosts still follow. You can never run fast or far enough.
So let's just deal with what's here.