time spent in between

Melancholy this afternoon, since buttercup claimed his anger. He is pissed at me and I don't know why. For someone to be that mad, I'd imagine I'd know the reason if I were the cause. Of course, this isn't the first time someone has claimed anger without me knowing. And here's what I don't understand either: buttercup used to be so logical and non-dramatic. When did he regress? When did he get immature and bitchy? When did he start thinking something was going to happen between us again? I don't know, but it was all news to me.
Melancholy. Wizard says I'm too hard on myself. "You seem to assume that other people don't have flaws. Everyone gets annoying after a while. With the information I have, it seems that he had expectations that he didn't share with you." He's right. It seems so obvious when put so bluntly. I should have one-week travel-through stands more often. This guy is top notch, short term.
People always want to give me advice. Probably try to give everyone advice. Sometimes I just have something to say that can't be solved with one sentence. Sometimes I just want to talk, not fix. Do you get it?

Melancholy but I don't miss anyone. I'm PMSing and the emotions show. Melancholy and aching for it to pass. I can get used to being alone. Con wants to fuck me again. I just want to be loved.
Is anyone ever going to love me again? Or am I just going to be a sex receptacle until I'm worn out and useless? I know that's a ridiculous question. But sometimes I feel it very keenly. There is no one in this town I could think of dating. I will embrace being alone. I will put it in my heart and live it.