things I've wanted to say but couldn't because now we're "just friends"

I miss fucking you.
We are so compatible sexually. I wish the other stuff didn't matter. You know, the relationship aspect, and the feelings, and incompatibility in other ways. But I miss the way your sweat would drip on me. One night you shoved my face into a pillow and tied my hands between my feet and proceeded to fuck me and put toys in my ass. Slowly. That was the best night, I think; or one of them. That is what I wanted to continue doing. That is what I miss the most. Because it wasn't pre-planned. You always knew what to do with my ass, you knew what to do with your dick, and it always felt so good to fall asleep with you afterwards. Maybe our relationship didn't last very long, but I wish the sex could have kept going.
I miss your cock. I loved to give you head. I liked how your dick stayed hard with a condom on. It was a big change from the ex-otter. He had problems. You didn't. I like how much you loved my ass; looking at it and playing with it. You had good technique when it came to spanking me. It was unique and effective and always left me wanting more.
I miss your chest hair, and your eyes, and your back, and your lips. There have been times I've wanted to text or call and say, "I miss having sex with you." Not so we would have sex again, but just so you'd know I was thinking about you.
However, I know you better than you think I do. You are scared I'll suck you in again, so you've put up even more barriers than usual. This is understandable. I do not think we will ever be emotionally compatible, but oh. The sex was so good. I'm not sure I could fuck you now, knowing that you were always holding something back from me. I don't care what happens before or after, but during it? I want you to be all mine and for me to be all your's. That can't happen if you're holding anything back. That can't happen when you're worried about me loving you.

And you don't yet seem to understand that sex and love can be mutually exclusive. One is not necessary for the other. I love you right now, yet we are not fucking. I could love you and fuck you and not have it be any bigger of a deal than it is right now. You are comforting to me. I trust you in some ways. If you could let go of your misunderstandings of me, things would be so much easier.

Why can't you just talk to me, instead of making all these unfair assumptions?

Seriously? Is it worth missing all the things I could give you, just so you don't have to communicate?