you didn't need to be that way

eight years of using pitas. I'm worried someday it will just cease to be. The help email account hasn't worked for years. It's been five years since they posted an update about the site. they aren't accepting new sign ups.
here I am. blogger. it isn't the same. we don't know each other well enough yet, blogger and I.
but I can try.

I border on obsession. I refresh, repeat, check up on his status. I am creepy creepy creepy and I have no reason to be.
I want him, and it's stupid. it's something I made up to pass the time but now it's become real.

Writing here doesn't feel right. It's too light colored. It's too clean. but I don't remember much html anymore and to be honest I was never good at it anyway. templates are so much easier.

hm.
templates.
is that what I try to do, find someone to fit into the hole in my chest? Maybe. a template. doesn't matter, it never works anyway.